12 Weeks and 5 Days

The first appointment we had with the gynae was on the 7th of February.  The doctor was very thorough, pleasant and clear on the matter that he only performs caesarean sections.  He gave us his reasoning behind this, however it all comes down to predictability.  As the Beefmaster and I left his offices and went about our normal day-to-day lives, we came to the following conclusions:

  1. We really like this doctor.
  2. He is old enough to be my grandfather and that is okay.
  3. We can settle for a caesarean section.
  4. We really would prefer natural birth if at all possible.
  5. Our doctor is such a lovely old man
  6. It is understandable that he would like to keep things simple-er and more predictable, especially at his age.
  7. I really want to go the natural route and I cannot pretend I’m okay with a c-section when I am not.

This was pretty much my day-to-day thinking.  I read up on the matter, I asked my friend’s what their opinions were.  I had conflict in my inner soul.  The BM agreed with whatever I felt comfortable with, he allowed me to say my say and listened patiently as I voiced my concerns.  Finally we had a plan:   The plan was to attend our second appointment and during the consultation to ask our doctor to refer us to an alternative doctor who will allow nature to take it’s course.  I remember how I had rehearsed the conversation.  I remember feeling confident about our decision.  However, once we had looked at the baby, my heart started beating a little bit faster.  We were sitting in the Doctor’s consultation room and I remember looking up at the Beefmaster, hoping he would start the conversation, I dreaded to bring to light.    I remember the pregnant (excuse the pun) pause, as we were about to leave the consultation area.  The moment we had the chance to say our say.  And I remember how both of us looked at the each other, stood up and kept quiet.

The question I pose is this:

 How do you “fire”  the gynae you have come to like very dearly, only because you are not willing to have your pregnancy planned according to someone else’s schedule?

They say kids are adaptable.

I wonder just how adaptable. 

At the beginning of the year Logan attended a school where neither him nor I was happy.  So we took a leap and moved schools.  He is happy now!

Yet at this moment I have a dilemma.  Kobus only gets home in the evenings at 18:00 and if I were to work in Midrand/ Johannesburg, I just won’t be in time to fetch him at school.  We will also soon be moving house and keeping him were he is, is just impossible! 

Our options are as follows:

a.)  It would have been most suited if we could register him in Grade 0/R at Lynnwood Ridge Primary.  Next year will be the first time the school offers Grade 0.  And we will be well along on a waiting list with very little chance of getting a space for him.

b.)  Very cute Prep-Academy across the road from Lynnwood Ridge Primary.  Apart from the fact that the school fees are a lot more than we are paying at the moment and that I will need to pack lunches, they are closed during school holidays.  All school holidays and not just December. 

What I do love about this school is the fact that it is all grown up, or as grown up as a prep-school can be:  They have a uniform (school t-shirt and jeans/ jean-shorts), all things are standard for example the stationary, school outings, swimming lessons are included.  It feels like Logan will be rewarded for being a big boy, instead of me simply taking him out of another school.  Or is that simply a way to make me feel less guilty? 

c.)  A Montessori School that is also located opposite the primary school.  The main difference is that they are open during the school holidays, which is a big bonus!  Unfortunately the school don’t have nearly as many inclusion as the prep-school and the school fees are double what we pay at the moment.  *Excluding meals and drinks*

d.)  School D, is reasonably close to the primary school and their website is pretty cute.  They call themselves a non-profit organisation, English medium and Christian based.  But for some reason they only list a landline number and no one is answering the phone! 

To be completely honest.  I have fallen in love with the Prep-Academy.  I have only ever driven past the school and really need to go and have a look at the rest of the school, but it was like love at first sight!

Unfortunately falling in love and being practical about things isn’t always the same thing. 

Or maybe I should just find more ways in which to justify the way I feel!